From: betty b 
Date: Mon Jan 29, 2001 1:24 pm
Subject: I did it!


It was all shrivelled and small and looked really weird because he wasn’t
circumcised and he smelled like he hadn’t showered in a day or two, which
really turned me off, but having come that far I knew I had to go through with
it so I just popped the whole thing into my mouth.  At first nothing happened
and I found myself with my nose buried in his smelly pubic hair wondering what
I was supposed to do.  I moved it around in my mouth with my tongue and pretty
soon it started getting hard so I could move my lips up and down it.  But then
the foreskin pulled back and it was kind of salty in there and that was totally
disgusting.  It seemed to take a long time.  Is it supposed to?  Or is it just
because I didn’t know what I was doing?  When my husband used to have sex with
me it was over in a few minutes but I kept on sucking and sucking and nothing
happened.  My jaw started getting sore and my knees hurt.   I started using my
hand to give my mouth a rest, but this seemed like I was cheating, somehow.  
Anyway, it ended up that I basically just jerked him off into my mouth which
made me feel totally pathetic because it was like I could not even suck cock
right not to mention that I kept picturing what I must look like, what the
ladies from my church group would think if they saw me kneeling on the doormat,
falling out of my robe, sucking the cock of that smelly, fat old man.  But
somehow picturing that turned me on even more and I started really enjoying
being such a dirty slut.  And I think it was because I was turned on that when
he started to cum I had the nerve to pull away and jerk him off all over my
face like I have been fantasizing about all these months, watching it squirt
out of the little hole at me.  

As soon as it was over we both got really embarrassed.  He quickly did up his
pants and left leaving me on the floor dripping in sperm telling me to make
sure I had the rent by next weekend.  And then I was alone, with a face full of
sperm, feeling dirty and used and disgusted with myself but also turned on and
proud of myself, too.  This is really sick, but I didn’t even clean it up right
away.  Instead, I went into my bedroom and masturbated, looking at myself in
the mirror at the sperm on my face and thinking about what a dirty slut I had
been.  I even opened my mouth and looked at the sperm that had gone in there,
pretending I was one of those girls on the web in the facial pictures and
picked some of the lumpy bits off my face and ate them.  It all felt so gross
and so exciting at the same time.  I think I masturbated for more than an hour
so by that time it had dried on my face and I looked awful, but even that sort
of turned me on.  No, that is a lie; it turned me on a whole lot, and that made
me feel disgusted with myself, which turned me on even more which disgusted me
more.  God, I'm so sick.  I don’t know what has happened to me.

But I really want to do it again and I don’t want to wait until next month,
either, so I think I may not give him all the rent next weekend.  

Thanks for all your help everybody,

Betty