Ah yes, Rose.
An interesting case of a woman utterly twisted by
her perversions, by her need to degrade herself. I
don't even remember how we first started talking,
but she kept me entertained through so many long
afternoons at work.
Myself, I am
very comfortable with my perversions. This
means I feel pretty much the same about things I
get off on when I am not aroused as when I am.
For a lot of people, however, as soon as they
orgasm and the arousal flows away they are filled
with negative feelings about what turns them on.
Rose was an extreme case of this. So often,
as soon as she got off she would be completely
disgusted with herself and effectively run away
from me in utter shame.
played out over and over and over spanning a number
of years. She would come looking for
humiliation. If I teased her for a few days,
not permitting her to orgasm, she would keep coming
back. I would have her do increasingly disgusting
things until, when she was finally allowed to cum,
she would disappear. Sometimes she would be
back the next day for more, but after a few days or
so, once she had done something truly horrible, I
would not hear from her for weeks or even months.
Maybe she just needed that itch scratched and once
sated was good for a while, but I tend to think it
was more desperate than that. I doubt "sated" is
what she felt. I think she needed to feel utter
self-loathing and every time she ran away it was
because she was could not stand herself. I
think she often swore to quit, like an addict who
knows her vice is self-destructive
But then weeks
or months later she would come crawling back for
more, a moth to a flame, a crack-whore to her
enjoy playing golf, Me? I just love
tormenting emotional masochists!